Sometimes life gets the best of me.

Sometimes life gets the best of me.  I suppose that is just part of life.  So many things going on, and we can become buried under them.

Last night as I was laying in bed feeling pretty depressed actually, and then I realized that I had not read my Bible at all this week.  I have been fighting a pretty bad sinus infection/head cold and have spent every moment at home just out of it.  All the while life has continued on around me and stuff has been happening.  This month has been a rough month personally.  Probably the hardest month I have had in my one year back in Ro.  It's like I have gone through a year of Peter walking on the water, and then this month, the waves have come crashing in and I have begun to sink.

As I was praying last night, trying to ask God for wisdom and to help me with a decision I need to make, He gently reminded me that I keep asking Him questions, but then not spending any time with Him in His word for answers.  Sigh....I know better.  And really I should not use being sick as an excuse.

So this morning in my devotional I was reminded about keeping it all about Jesus.  This obviously applies to my ministry here, but it applies to life in general.  It is not only the needs of the people we minister to that can overwhelm us, it is our own needs and wants, the needs of family and friends, the expectations of those around us....and next thing you know we are so focused on the waves of needs that we lose sight of the ONE who has called us, who has redeemed us, and who has a plan for us. The one who gives us answers and blessings, wisdom and hope.

So now that the Lord has reminded me of this, I need to put it into practice....cause even the revelation of truth, while it brings freedom and hope, still needs to be worked out in our lives.  I know these things to be true, I know where my eyes and heart and hope need to be focused.... NOW I need to apply this.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers as I turn to Him and lean on Him during this crazy time.

Here is the devo I mentioned earlier....

What is a Missionary?

Jesus said to them again, "…As the Father has sent Me, I also send you." —John 20:21

A missionary is someone sent by Jesus Christ just as He was sent by God. The great controlling factor is not the needs of people, but the command of Jesus. The source of our inspiration in our service for God is behind us, not ahead of us. The tendency today is to put the inspiration out in front— to sweep everything together in front of us and make it conform to our definition of success. But in the New Testament the inspiration is put behind us, and is the Lord Jesus Himself. The goal is to be true to Him— to carry out His plans.
Personal attachment to the Lord Jesus and to His perspective is the one thing that must not be overlooked. In missionary work the great danger is that God’s call will be replaced by the needs of the people, to the point that human sympathy for those needs will absolutely overwhelm the meaning of being sent by Jesus. The needs are so enormous, and the conditions so difficult, that every power of the mind falters and fails. We tend to forget that the one great reason underneath all missionary work is not primarily the elevation of the people, their education, nor their needs, but is first and foremost the command of Jesus Christ— “Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations…” (Matthew 28:19).
When looking back on the lives of men and women of God, the tendency is to say, “What wonderfully keen and intelligent wisdom they had, and how perfectly they understood all that God wanted!” But the keen and intelligent mind behind them was the mind of God, not human wisdom at all. We give credit to human wisdom when we should give credit to the divine guidance of God being exhibited through childlike people who were “foolish” enough to trust God’s wisdom and His supernatural equipment.
-My Utmost For His Highest